2010 - 2011

cha cha... it's been ages since i updated bloggie here...
it's becoz i don't feel like blogging sometimes...
exhausted? maybe. hahaha

tons of stuffs happened,
from Christmas Eve to after New Year 2011...

both special days aren't special at all...

i was sick during Christmas.

however, thanx to Vern and her family.

for keeping me company for Christmas.

i really, really, really appreciate that.

thank you so much Vern.

my gang came to KL.
for shopping...

and screwing up my house.

hahahaha...

it feels so glad seeing them...

went back to ipoh, for a week.
had been growing mushrooms at home...
until New Year Eve,
where Tseyen held a steamboat dinner...
and it end up early.
so i went for Karaoke...
i didnt sound good, coz i was still sick...
and we sang till we neglected the countdown,
great old daddy had fun counting down in i-city with mua dearest cousin.
so-in-trend and so 'kawan' both of them. haha

Lower half of Semester B commenced...
before that, i was slammed by a horrible fact.
a fact that i knew it would happen.
a fact that i expected that it would happen.
but, not as fast that i would expected it to happen.
i was like...falling into pieces.

all i could only do, is filling up my blanket and pillow with, yea, tears.

i thought that i could handle it.
in fact, i can't.

i tried my best.

they just kept rolling down.

it made me feel so hard to breathe.

it's been almost 16 days.
and every night it is still so difficult to fall asleep.
the moment my head lands on the pillow,

or closing up my eyes.

images appear.

they kept appearing.

i'm addicted to the hands and shoulders.
i need a major remedy, seriously.

i can't find a reason to hate you.
to forget someone, you won't care if they show up again,
and you don't feel like seeing them.
but this time, i still wished that i'm the one who you care the most.
i will still wait for you to approach me if i do not do so.

i wanted to tell you all my secrets, but you became one of them instead.

i don't understand why am i holding on,

i can't let go,

unless there's someone better appearing.

sometimes, i don't know whether i was the one who was thinking too much.

i don't feel that i was cared like before,

sometimes i feel neglected.
it feels so pain.

however,

i will try to think positively,

coz i promised that i'll be happy.

i remember that you liked seeing my happy face

i believe,

maybe one day,

you'll see me.

maybe it will not happen.

i don't know.

maybe...

everytime i made a wish,

they are for you,

i just want you to be happy.

ilymtyet